hearts out

well, as always its sucha torturing and traumatic during the exam week...anyhow its all over. am gonna have the time of my life for the time being before the start of the new sem. it has been indeed a 'great' week as am free from exams and stuffs where i can easily watch movies, reading my all time favourite storybooks, listening to songs, hangout etc...but somehow thrs this corner of my heart,i felt so empty. its as though am being outcast into some deserted island with the cannibals and some typical tribes around me. envious and jealousness feelings creeping as well. kept questioning the reason to be here. i know thrs an answer to everything but its yet to derive. try to put away my unwanted thoughts aside but it just kept haunting. i felt regret to be like one but that is how its made of. plus the pressure is killing me. everything just seems like a roadblock. i should look up to Him. for strength. for everything...

end of emoing. i looked back,almost all my post mostly on all about my sad, emo stories.allrite. quick revert. thrs this convention im goin to attend and it held from 26th to 29th. am freaking eager to join...as its the biggest event of all! well you gonna see thousands of ppl from all walks of life flocking to picc kl! and this 14th MNC( the Malaysian National Convention), our Hope KK will have the priviledge to perform in the closing ceremony of MNC which is just simply awesome! as this is our very 1st time to conduct this grand convention... (adrenalines rushing)!

and i will be performing on stage as just the minor roles in sketch too! though its just a small role and a short play but wateva...i felt so excited! its so rare but i believe we need to seize every opportunity that comeby. so it started on the 26th and my exams finished on the 16th. practically am stuck here for like 10days long before going back to malacca. i just darn miss home nw. though it seems like just 10 short days, but its like 100 thousand years to me! seriously though am free and its nw the sem holidays but still i felt so restless , bored, agitated and tired. as i guess am clueless on what to do and how to utilize my free time here. unlike when its study weeks whr u are so caught up with lotsa things and it just kept u moving....

ok, will have to rot for another 5days here. haiz. =(( having backpain as a consequences of not doing strenuous exercises like walking up the hill to class! will have to take a nap nw. later at 6pm got practice for mnc closing. last thurs we were done at 1130pm! though we got lectured by sis dorcas as we screwed things up the other day during practice, and when thrs unhappy moments and intense pressure during practice, but all along we felt so connected and joyful with one another! its a wonderful experience i would have said. =))

untitle

what happen to my blog posting? it cant seem to add space in between paragraphs... hmmmph! neway nothing to blog as my poor brain is saturated with info on soil! i dont want to be a farmer! ahh! as usual resume with my boring work aGaIn! signing off! poof!

these days(the summary)

Again, the huugee gap between me and my bloggie is so far apart these days....hardly update and penned something down but managed to do so... =) u see, it has been very hectic this semester with workload of assignments,lab reports, quizzes, midterms, etc (u named it) piled up like a mountain reaching the gates of heaven.....and it has taken a toll on me. i felt so restless and exhausted each day. most of the time i will have sleepless nites where i will wake up several times of the day worrying what have i left out in my to-do lists. i will just automatically get tensed up, panicky and anxious about everything that revolves the days to come, the hours to pass, the minutes and seconds to tick just right away.

Moments of excitement and the eagerness to unveil the mystery each day with a leaping heart has been snatched away unobtrusively. Peals of laughter which suppose to hear just fade away and has been transformed into a mundane and plain routines. everything just seems not right. everything just seems to become topsy-turvy and have not fallen into the right place. it changed. everything around me changed so drastically which i never expect to. its as though each day there will be mountain ridges over me, a forked road ahead which left you in daze, and each time is like a drag...an attractive force which try to pull you down that eventually weakens you on the inside.

Life is like a climb. you need to persevere on or else you are going to suffer from utter regretness,which left you empty, scarce, and almost bereft of hope.

Life is so fragile too. it is easily withered. weak. abate. the harsh world that has been destined ahead of you, the road taken which is not always smooth-sailing, pricky thorn which left you to bleed has been associated along with comforting words pumped up to substitute the hidden sorrow embedded inside. it is as though you are part of everything that came crumbling down.

It is undeniable disappointing and diabolical knowing the truth. i got so angry and mad knowing what the things had been blurted out but somehow the blow which had already reached the peak surprisingly slowly tailed off...after my bumped into Annie. it is all painstakingly true. you cant change their perceptions which they earnestly rooted for. is of no use and will left you being defeated. it is to no avail for something not worth to treasure for. it is darn pathetic they arent aware of what they are doing. you dont have to turn everything around to gain their insincere trusts. its a matter of being who you are and what you are.

~sicko~

shiiit....im sick! that is the worst and most avoidable word i wish to erase in my life!!! been coughing for the past few days! and in addition headache like hell....and felling very dizzy and drowsy. i hope i can fly bck right now...at this very minute. will be instantly recover under my mummy's care. BEST nurse of all. ergh....this is driving me nuts and berserk! cant even sleep well last few days...no appetite some more. had skipped breakfast and lunch, oly had milo for dinner. the heavy head in me made me feel like banging myself to the concrete wall. will need to consult my lecturer later bout my ppib thingy. why no seksyen 3! so troublesome... #&!*?@
i surrender all to YOU!!!

for the first time

yes...am back in kk...arrived on the 20th june...and it has been 2days since am here. still having mixed feelings as there was an urge luring me to stay back later. but its not going to change anithing. coaxing myself there's no turning back,look ahead and never regret bout it. its pretty boring here basically because i missed home. i missed my bed. i missed my bolster(suppose to be but couldnt resist so kidnapped my rounded bolster to kk). i missed astro. i missed food in mlc. i missed cycling. etc.....i missed laughing with my mum too. thinking back it was my very first time to take a bus alone to an airport(klia) i've never been there for like donkey years. almost 10years i think. but it was a great experience to atcually unveil the excitement in addition with the anxiousness in me...but it takes a heaps of courage to do so as im insecure to travel alone.... but God has been very graceful and good to me that He had planned a smooth sailing journey for me that i bumped into a malay lady and she was in the same boat as me as her flight took off at 1pm to the neighbouring country which i destined to which was sarawak..an hour earlier than me. and chatting with her do help me to kill time a lil faster than me alone sitting like a dummy and walking to and fro like a stalker. she was very helpful and she gave me a hug when it was time for her to wait in the waiting room. such a good Samaritan. All glory to You oh LORD!!!!

food served in MAS for free

the fake castle at the klia airport

then geoffrey came to my rescue! haha...waited for half an hour. im his 2nd passenger. pity stiwell and another gal from bm congregation. stiwell has been waiting for nearly an hour. cuz geoffrey have to sent the tourist back to their hotels and then fetched us according to the roads he headed to.

later the next day, we went to church and the church celebrated father's day,surprising them with a cake specially made by sis Lovely! wow, delicious to the maxx!! i want more! oh ya, at the peak of the service, very embarassing. haha..cuz pastor was like repeatedly announcing the church those who came back early...even today too. have to stand some more and everyone will shook hands with u aka congratulating. so weird and strange le... then went to pasar petang, filipino market with diana,ta william and geoffrey to buy fishballs, fishcakes, etc...to cook together with the satay paste i brought. damn, we bought tooooo much. theres lotsa remainder left. the trip to the market was very funny. that william la...full of stupid jokes..walau...laughed till my heads off! then we saw a 'mermaid' as what mentioned by william sleeping near the fish stalls...and a woman using an umbrella as her cap! ahahah..so hilarious..crap la that william.

not-so-clear satay celup image

cutie Rachel playing the keyboard!!! so cuteee.... and she always look at guys! memang ba opposite attracts as what shim said.hahah..wow everyone was like surrounding her like a popular star regardless of age!

allrite, for today, we had our family day at tanjung aru. there's no teaching but just a fun day to gather with one another. played 3 simple games and had lunch together with the bm congregation along with sis michelle and another philipino sis(haha forget her name). and now the usual ones: diana, william, emui, annie are working 'overtime' till the wee hours. last nite we stayed up till 2am i think..watching, chatting, etc.

pandemic flu!

just came back from bus station with churning emotions.... anxiety,worry,and fearful doubts abound. anxious thoughts assail after reaching the car. bombarded with lots of negative possibilities playing in my mind. the WHAT IF question repeatedly lingers in my mind even till now. the thing that cause me to feel like this is after i read the star newspaper today which published one infected in the airport Recently and spread to 20 more ppl. and my biggest fear is that im going to the airport this coming saturday!!! so soon.... and and and so unlucky. suppose to use the A1 bus which will send me to airport from malacca at 9am and suppose to reach at 11am but now due to the pandemic flu AH1N1 they suffered downfall business and turned down our transport to airport! darn!!! and now i have to take the transnasional bus which will start the journey at wee hours : 5A.M !!! shiit....and i will be stranded in the klia airport for like 6-7 hours! as my flight will be at 2pm.... =( and then thinking that what if, what if...chances are....Shiit.... GOD I NEED YOUR PROTECTION DURING THE PERIOD IM IN THE AIRPORT FOR LONG HOURS...SHIELD ME FROM ANY HARM AND SICKNESS...WITH THE BLOOD OF JESUS. I PRAY FOR MY FLIGHT TO ARRIVE SAFELY... MAY YOUR ANGELS LIFT AND LAND THE AIRPLANE AND TOUCHDOWN SMOOTHLY...IN THE NAME OF JESUS MOST PRECIOUS POWERFUL NAME I PRAY AMEN...

lazy bump fella back to exercise mode

yeap....as what mention above i've made an achievement!!!- manage to woke up as early as 6.59am to exercise with my mummy!!! it has been two days in a row... wonder why i can wake up so easily when im in kk but when im here really can sleep like a log! ahaha! but the 1st time i jog and exercise with my mum, i was shock! the reason is my mum atcually barged into some institusi latihan kemas(i think) to use their compound and do her regular exercise spot! oh my! was like 'ma, u crazy ahh?tat fella sure halau u le...pandaix2 u masuk...can ka?' she selamba(dunno watz de word for eng,hehe) only.. until she told me she did asked the warden for permission but he wasnt happy so she asked the clerk and she gave in. check this out..new discovery by my mummy...

the compound in that institute

my mum(pink) and her jogging partner...manage to tag along everyday at the same place too! wow.. big commitment.hmm...

perspiration+sweat=a bucket of water

nasi lemak!!! love the sambal shiokk to the fullest!!!

then, went back and watch oprah winfrey show every morning with my mummy without fail( sometimes la but still pass).. damn nice programme le that show! thr's 1 part of her show moved me and touched to see how kind people are in this world. this show really open up ppl's eyes to see how caring, loving and tenderness of people on someone's life...a helping hand, tribute, and gift to an unknown strangers. some of the scene are soooo tragic that i couldnt help it but tsk tsk.... love her show.

wanna thank my elder bro to the loads for coming back purposely for just 1day from kl knowing that i will be off this saturday and will not be coming bck until the next sem break...eventhough he has class the next day. tsk tsk...so touched. LoVe yea loads punk rocker!!!haaha..

aLiVe aGaiN???

hey there, been sometime since i last update *click on my blog* and realized its been 32 days i have actually away from posting anything in this blog...well anyway!! going to blog but am not sure its going to be super duper brief or a long update, im trying to squeeze everything that came across my mind cuz i felt i lose touch of 'journalling' now( the consequences of hibernating my poor blog)...it goes well to me when i start ranting and raving but trying to minimize it IF i manage to...
(clock ticking LOUDLY) Allrite, was suppose to wake up as early as 7am to run around the neighboring hood but again the still-not-enough-sleep urged me to sleep soundly and dragged the time till it showed 11.30am! i've been procrastinating on going jogging with my mummy frm last 2weeks i suppose but its always boils down to the same excuse i gave "lets jog in the evening la ma" ( and it will definitely not going to happen)....>.< MOST PRECISE ON TARGET VICTIM- my lil bro. he will then relentlessly do it.. hahaha... i must made a vow to change now. haiz...
then my elder bro called. he's coming back and arrived in the morning and so off my parents went to fetch him at the melaka sentral. then after that we went to a malay weddding and have our lunch there...hmm love the nasi briyani and they even mixed the nasi with kismis!!! ~yummy~ plus all kinds of meat. better than kge food. =__=
later, when to someone's hse to have my lappie check-up and luckily he's virus freeeee.... yee! and installed a new anti-virus. we went to jonker street later to get some pineapple tarts which my elder bro requested cuz he wanna give it to his frenz...since mlc famous for its pineapple tarts. *signals to cut short* and so so so we then go tesco,mydin and lastly went back and celebrate my elder bro belated birthday and my advanced birthday!! 2 in 1!!! and thats a wrap!!!


cakey... ~yummie~


together


he's trying to act cool with my lil bro guitar sweat =_=' ( i want a tattoo too!!!)

grr...!!!

an abandon poor blog

allrite, here am i again updating a super duper unattractive, unwanted boring lil blog which i have already abandon and ditched it for like quite some time..... the thing about me is that i dont regularly update it becoz i do not have ample time to do so... even if i have and have the Chance to do so, it so happened that my hostel connection line is damn bad. so the thing i will resort to is to let my blog hibernate or let it be.... thats the rarest thing ppl would do but only one of a kind will do so. hahah. to summarize evithin i felt like thrashing in this whole post is that all along my one year stay in sabah i just felt really grateful to be here, i mean thrs like one whole bunch of awesome ppl around me who are always thr to gave a helping hand and to tell the truth they are one hell of a Good Samaritan and that holds me back thinking about every way that they have encouraged me despite in bad times or good times. the unforgettable memories do lingers in my mind but anyhow will really treasure it loads. one thing for sure is that the uni studs in peninsular msia are going to regret for not studying in east msia, i mean they for sure going to miss the sight and sound in sabah or sarawak. sabah is like full of lush greenery and pictureque view of the sea. fyi every morning i always get to listen to the songs 'sang and hum' repeatedly non-stop till late afternoon and again in the evening none other than my loyal buddy creature-the crickets gang. they are sometimes thr 24/7 for a good foc rate.. not bad right? i just felt that its a real blessings becoz im able to kill 2birds with a stone whereby besides studying in sabah far away from peninsular im able to go on a short vacation thr to all the popular hotspot places in sabah. its fun though that we are able to study and travel around at the same time, i mean after an intense hard-pressed and hardships during our uni life with tonnes of assignments piling up, never ending lab reports, quizzes which pop up seasonally, hop-in bus fieldtrips and etc etc but at the end of the day or semester we do unwind and pamper ourselves to have a break by going to the Pearl of The South China Sea (Labuan) for just a day.

we went thr on the 9th may using a speedboat which include deb, k.yeen, and the always act cute mun seng. we were excited and all geared-up to sit the speedboat for the very 1st time and it took us bout 30mins to reached labuan from menumbok. but it was a damn tiring journey as nearly 70% were all wasted on the road. geez, we were like a lost 'global trekker' thr...we did ended up in umskal doing the craziest stuff that is to on9 in the umskal megalab! waht on earth we did thr were unexplainable.haha. so basically it was a so-so trip but it do broaden our horizon to see how labuan's like...its a small town with only 1 kfc outlet in uk shoppong centre. during the journey back to menumbok port, i was really captivated and mesmerized by God's masterpiece or creation especially seeing the deep blue sea and the lush greenery surrounding the small island. oh how great is our God is...

and its vividly in my mind that im no longer a 1st yearstudent.theres alot of things to catch up with but will just do one step at a time. now will have to savour to the fullest my time here in malacca before heading back to ums. more update soon. >u<

easter day peeps!!!

well suppose to blog bout this right after cg but yeah again the line in the hostel is freaking bad.... worst still for those who stayed in block b1 cuz if its in block a1 they can really on9 24hours okay....without any disruption. those poor victims including myself by force have to accelerate themselves to go down to the cafe and on9.... why am i using lotsa physics terms these days...even before that im able to on9 near the drain but now even out of the drain cant even detect still! orait, back to the pic. enough of my rambling stories. last thurs our cg theme is pre easter celebration! our activity of the day wasss........to paint something on the plain 'egg shell' so that it will turn out attractive and extraordinary, but at that moment we were clueless of what to paint...and finally we came out with an idea to paint something that we saw! we were divided into 2 groups, 3 in a group. mine comprise of 'ta' william and my sheperd and the other was von, hong chian and kevin. melia was the observer that day..... so as usual funny ideas came popping in our imaginative heads but even if its the brilliant one, we cant even vomit it out on the egg cuz we need a real picture! haha.. so we ended up, my group drew and paint a dog with an 'or che' aka ' or ba kak' (bruises) on one of its eyes and the other group drew greeny lil dino! melia named our easter dog milo cuz its obvious it had light milo colour skin and green tea for the dino which in no time turning into genie! then when it was about to end, suddenly william asked the theme or regulations for these easter egg and actually we were ought to draw sumthing that is relevant with biblical and creative stuff but........(making eye contact with one another for a few seconds) no choice but to go on with waht we already produced...haha... then melia was very confident that we will definetely win the children's best easter egg award!!! and we were like giving good compliments of each other's masterpiece..haha! assuring ourselves by doing so really works.. but all in all it was fun that day! get to play with the paint i havent touch for donkey years! love art mann... i used to love to draw scenery back then....but well to bad....no time to catch up with my interest now. and easter day is this coming sunday! theres gonna be plenty of eggs flooding in the church! this reminds me of togeppi...the one in pokemon. haha... okayy enuf of crap. pics pics pics~

squeaky cleany whitey

on the go! on eggy body with muddy color

the product produced after an hour or so

her product mate

our cutie masterpiece!!!! cant be blame and resist as they are too adorable rite? haha

their back with the dino genie with it's curly murly hair and the milo with its graduation thingy

out from the narrow box

guess what..... i just came back from 1B!!! its likes a rare time i get to actually unwind myself to somewhere o elsewhere....especially when ur so bogged down with sumthin and the intense moment ur facing even its for just a few hours of strolling but it just makes u feel good. Good for just temporary duration not to plateau or high rise to peak yet but yeah a slight one. kinda chill out and dine in hong kong restaurant...eating the most expensive food will just swallow down the amount of cash in my blackie purse but its not like im goin thr everyday rite....i ordered the cheese baked rice with pork. oh my that food is just simply delicious and made me crave for more...especially the thick cheeeese on top of the rice! aww i love cheezy cheeeeeze! the appetizing smell of the cheese and the minced pork embedded in it will just boost u up to grab for another scoop. yeah but kinda failed to finish up the scrumptious cheese baked rice cuz its kinda a big portion though... surprisingly i met ah boon thr... i mean i nv expect he would be there though he did told me he's working in the hk restaurant in 1B....or should i say im having a short term memory...and we just chat awhile cuz he's working rite and im also busy savouring the food rite.haha.. but d best part to know someone at the place we happened to eat is that haha....i got 10% discount! and he actually serve me 3 different kinda chilli after i blurted out i want chilli sauce..as if im so greedy till he got me 3kinds k... but wateva it is im just maximising my time there...its for a good cause though...at least it will be a good digestion. then after got the things i needed i need to rush back to dkp for my microecons class. darn, hate the 1B shuttle bus system mann... fyi, we have to go from 1 end to get the ticket and rush to the other end to board the bus.. wat kinda nonsensical system is this... im not the solely victims even amelia too! i bumped into her when shes on the way to the ticket counter to get the shuttle bus ticket. this is so ridiculous mann.... even another 2ums fella also rush=run to the other end cuz at that time it was already 1pm and we will not want to hop into the 1.30pm bus. so im like huffing and puffing after i got into the bus FINALLY...and told the woman to wait for melia. its like a 100% total burden to users okay....! no sense of direction la those who prompt out this idea... really wat de..mann. even if its encouraging us to exercise but not in this way rite...i can always do it in the park but here?in shopping complex? uhh..damn it cuz got lotsa stares from passers-by,wondering wat the hell this gal running for... A Million Dolars? shitt, its the sake of that greenish bus. will post pics nxt time i blog then. cuz will have to go back to prepare bread for holy communion and im the chair 2day.nervous creeping...

its march....i lose track of the month

am nw in sktm on9ing with fang fang.....am here since 4pm and im so damn freaking tired... havent finish tracking down the information i needed but still got time to blog nw.....was trying to access net in kgE before that but damn kept on disconnect saja..waste my time hanging around there. ish....stupid busy lagging line always trouble us to actually finish up our pile up work mount like high mountains. i still have a lot more to go!!!! hate assignments le! its like a never ending thing........in my room im always the one facing the laptop every now and then and this actually bugging me that i always have sleepless nite. profuse assignments are none other than the fact a pain in the ass... wasnt a plan that i met up with fang fang but so happened she came here to on9 as me...hehe... cuz the library line memang not good Unless at nite or early in the morning. i mean at least i have someone beside me to on9 together. haha....she was constantly complaining like me that we are unable to finish up our annoying assignment but hell yeah at least we put effort in it right...... then around 6sumthin saw d terfamous sktm fella namely kevin( p/s: no offence) with his buddies after class i suppose kan... fang plan to go back at 9 cuz nw no bus since they take shifts or else they knew nw no students bah... anyway goin to stay up late to finish up stuff at the same time damaging my ears listening to loud rawk songs. thats the 'bestest' way for me to release my STRESS haunting me...luv listening the band 'forever the sickest kids','senses fail', 'valencia', 'early november' etc i so goin to ask my bros to update me with the latest rawk bands pop up like mushroom in US oncce am back to my Melaka... ah, cant wait to go bck mann! ish....miss home d...

howww can this be......?

its a hell for me this semester....1st day of class as in last month to be precise we are being given 2 assignments. and then now amount to 1major assignments(1more coming up), 2 ppib asssignments, and 2 minor assignments and coming up 1 more lab report!!! am seriously going nuts for sure! we are human beings and we are assigned like a robust as if...we are always fit and strong...ahh....! plus all those physics tutorials, statistics and ppib quizzes are just sugaring the pill of my entire life here.... am realllly goin crazy soon. and its really bugging me thinking bout these everyday each time i woke up from my bed.... and yeah, always a bad day. should sing daniel powter's song-bad day then. and i dont really wanna mention this cuz its quite bad, cruel, and unpleasant of me but i just felt that the duties, activities, etc in church and cg kinda amounts and hit me, left me in uncertainties bout myself... imean i felt like a moron. darn useless in solving stuff not like anyone else a thousand times better than me in juggling their schedule and stuffs. my life is like in topsy-turvy in an utter destructive chaos scenario... ergh! this is so shitty... i just wish i could just fast forward and turn back time like in the Click. yeah rite... tats so impossible..

snap back to reality

heyz am back after a 'long' break on a mere short 'holiday' back home....told u its so fast and guess what tomorrow will be my long term in prison. tomorrow will have to sit 2am bus to kl and then flight touchdown at 9am. hope theres no delay. well to summarise overall, theres alot of places to visit...i mean bai nian. the 1st three days spend omost half a day in respective relatives houses. and as a tradition all of us will gather to play the poker cards. its fun though aithough we just invest few ringgits. its togetherness that counts. yeah pretty miss that day. cut it short..and on the 4th day my exclassmates and I gather and we go visiting to like more than 10houses. this time it was kinda different cuz cy and i join the pro physics fellas...and we start our mission trip cny houses at 10am and ended up at bout 1030pm. kinda tiring but luckily not me whos driving. its nw a few hours away from my time to go back to sabah. no, its actually 2hours TO 1am. anyhow have to gear up myself for all the heaps and tonnes of assignments+tutorials+exams trailing along... its becoming intense. anyway ppl, im goin back to SABAH!!!!!

dying to go back!

am now in ppib after bahasa class sitting on da floor onlining...waiting for the time and day passed. tats because im dying to go bck home!!!! its approaching but those 2 days are like 200masihi. so slow okay.... and will be bck home for like 1 week and that 1week means zero days. once ur back and swift!! it will be time to come back here... but anyway at least am able to go back not goin to rot here. miss evithin back home again. i noe we shud not cling on this kinda habit as we need to move on but it do comes from a genuine heart. wateva it is, goin to be freaking damn happy able to go bck to Malacca to celebrate CNY!!!
GONG XI FA CAI PPL!!!
but its not going to be a complete cny cuz have assignments to do...! :(
and its raining cats and dogs nw...so hungry. my new 5bucks umbrella kena stolen.... :(

stupid registration

this registration really drives me INSANE! in and out for nothing at the end. online and offline for no reason at the end. its just crap. am not going to complain in detail cuz tired of it. actually in my pre i register both and i got both bahasa. but resort to kad.dusun cuz sources said its easier. just after kad.dusun class. learn a few weird words. still no heartfelt bout tis bahasa but neway that just it. gotta live with it in me for 4sems. thrs 2 guys from my course were in da same situation as me. and clement too. basically the class comprised of chinese ppl who are in the same boat as me. yeah crap. got no choice rite... hope will be exciting even dun felt tat to be. but yeah d lect. is nice. yeah 'nice' is the word to tell ppl each time they ask bout my bahasa thingy...

its finally The Year of a Moo Moo!

allright this suppose to be the 1st post for the year2009 but got carried away and forget to post bout it! yes! its finally a neww year and i went to hope to celebrate my new year there for my very 1st time! with exceptional of the fireworks i always spectate out of my balcony house, somewhere outside with frenz and not to forget on tv! i remembered countdown with mum and lil bro in front of tv just the trio of us and how we stayed up late just to patiently wait till the clock struck twelve and we will shout happy new year!!!... i even dozed of to sleep and woke up till the clock struck exactly 12. the event held at hope was called all in one night. it was basically a prayer meeting but who said we cant kill two birds with one stone( forget the proverb d, something like that i guess)? yeap at the same time we celebrate new year in hope... and yeah we went back around 2am. on our way back to uni driven by munseng, we stopped at the side of the road waiting for william to drove past thru 1st cuz i guessed he has experienced this before. we were like doubting that will we not be allowed to get in or will we have to resort putting a nite somewhere eerie outside. but he finally gave in. so so so tired. slept at bout 3am and the next day we had to wake up early cuz munseng will be fetching us to church for church cleaning at 9am and we finished cleaning at 3pm! that was extremely exhausting ok! me and von were like yawning from morning till noon! we were assigned to wipe all of the chairs. guessed there were like more than 100++ chairs. but overall it was fun though with amelia's bubbly actions pretending the chairs as her microphone and singing non stop! and lishia too using that chairs as her guitars and microphones. later at 6pm we had our combined cg dinner in kf. yes i need to aim for it for i must obtain that target, i must not turn back but to march forward eventho fret might assail... Happy New Year guys!!!!

unpredictable newz...

yes, to be more precise it was rather a shocking newz okay.....formerly we are in genesis cg but now! we are to change to other cg. i mean theres a few of us changing only namely none other than ME yvonne kevin and lastly andrew (all from genesis previously)... not that am patronizing in a rude manner bout this new system but its just that we are already got used to the previous cg already but now out of a sudden it just led us in a stake of gnaw... i mean it was like we are used to the former cg and thought that we will stick with the same cg but suddenly: ( imagine or picture that someone snatched ur beloved thingie in just split second...) but anyway to think it again there's no point to dwell or brood over this matter cuz its not going to change anything. and i guess what my senior roomie told me was right.... she mentioned that the prominent reason you go to cg is not to make friends okay...but to be excite over God's presence and to always looking forward for Him! but its just that we will be in a completely different environment and will be slightly hard for us to adapt at first la... andrew was saying he's not used to a male leader and demand the coming cg to be informal in order to adapt with the new cg atmosphere. which is according to plans being discussed we will go to 1B for bowling. but its still a not-so-sure decision. we will just have to uphold everything to our mighty God so that we will get along well with one another and not to create unsatisfactory feelings or doubts towards one another. but the thoughts that is there will be big expectations which will impact on me kept lingering in my mind. yes, fear surrounds and invades in me. it flames stronger each time.