Again, the huugee gap between me and my bloggie is so far apart these days....hardly update and penned something down but managed to do so... =) u see, it has been very hectic this semester with workload of assignments,lab reports, quizzes, midterms, etc (u named it) piled up like a mountain reaching the gates of heaven.....and it has taken a toll on me. i felt so restless and exhausted each day. most of the time i will have sleepless nites where i will wake up several times of the day worrying what have i left out in my to-do lists. i will just automatically get tensed up, panicky and anxious about everything that revolves the days to come, the hours to pass, the minutes and seconds to tick just right away.
Moments of excitement and the eagerness to unveil the mystery each day with a leaping heart has been snatched away unobtrusively. Peals of laughter which suppose to hear just fade away and has been transformed into a mundane and plain routines. everything just seems not right. everything just seems to become topsy-turvy and have not fallen into the right place. it changed. everything around me changed so drastically which i never expect to. its as though each day there will be mountain ridges over me, a forked road ahead which left you in daze, and each time is like a drag...an attractive force which try to pull you down that eventually weakens you on the inside.
Life is like a climb. you need to persevere on or else you are going to suffer from utter regretness,which left you empty, scarce, and almost bereft of hope.
Life is so fragile too. it is easily withered. weak. abate. the harsh world that has been destined ahead of you, the road taken which is not always smooth-sailing, pricky thorn which left you to bleed has been associated along with comforting words pumped up to substitute the hidden sorrow embedded inside. it is as though you are part of everything that came crumbling down.
It is undeniable disappointing and diabolical knowing the truth. i got so angry and mad knowing what the things had been blurted out but somehow the blow which had already reached the peak surprisingly slowly tailed off...after my bumped into Annie. it is all painstakingly true. you cant change their perceptions which they earnestly rooted for. is of no use and will left you being defeated. it is to no avail for something not worth to treasure for. it is darn pathetic they arent aware of what they are doing. you dont have to turn everything around to gain their insincere trusts. its a matter of being who you are and what you are.
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