hearts out

well, as always its sucha torturing and traumatic during the exam week...anyhow its all over. am gonna have the time of my life for the time being before the start of the new sem. it has been indeed a 'great' week as am free from exams and stuffs where i can easily watch movies, reading my all time favourite storybooks, listening to songs, hangout etc...but somehow thrs this corner of my heart,i felt so empty. its as though am being outcast into some deserted island with the cannibals and some typical tribes around me. envious and jealousness feelings creeping as well. kept questioning the reason to be here. i know thrs an answer to everything but its yet to derive. try to put away my unwanted thoughts aside but it just kept haunting. i felt regret to be like one but that is how its made of. plus the pressure is killing me. everything just seems like a roadblock. i should look up to Him. for strength. for everything...

end of emoing. i looked back,almost all my post mostly on all about my sad, emo stories.allrite. quick revert. thrs this convention im goin to attend and it held from 26th to 29th. am freaking eager to join...as its the biggest event of all! well you gonna see thousands of ppl from all walks of life flocking to picc kl! and this 14th MNC( the Malaysian National Convention), our Hope KK will have the priviledge to perform in the closing ceremony of MNC which is just simply awesome! as this is our very 1st time to conduct this grand convention... (adrenalines rushing)!

and i will be performing on stage as just the minor roles in sketch too! though its just a small role and a short play but wateva...i felt so excited! its so rare but i believe we need to seize every opportunity that comeby. so it started on the 26th and my exams finished on the 16th. practically am stuck here for like 10days long before going back to malacca. i just darn miss home nw. though it seems like just 10 short days, but its like 100 thousand years to me! seriously though am free and its nw the sem holidays but still i felt so restless , bored, agitated and tired. as i guess am clueless on what to do and how to utilize my free time here. unlike when its study weeks whr u are so caught up with lotsa things and it just kept u moving....

ok, will have to rot for another 5days here. haiz. =(( having backpain as a consequences of not doing strenuous exercises like walking up the hill to class! will have to take a nap nw. later at 6pm got practice for mnc closing. last thurs we were done at 1130pm! though we got lectured by sis dorcas as we screwed things up the other day during practice, and when thrs unhappy moments and intense pressure during practice, but all along we felt so connected and joyful with one another! its a wonderful experience i would have said. =))

its march....i lose track of the month

am nw in sktm on9ing with fang fang.....am here since 4pm and im so damn freaking tired... havent finish tracking down the information i needed but still got time to blog nw.....was trying to access net in kgE before that but damn kept on disconnect saja..waste my time hanging around there. ish....stupid busy lagging line always trouble us to actually finish up our pile up work mount like high mountains. i still have a lot more to go!!!! hate assignments le! its like a never ending thing........in my room im always the one facing the laptop every now and then and this actually bugging me that i always have sleepless nite. profuse assignments are none other than the fact a pain in the ass... wasnt a plan that i met up with fang fang but so happened she came here to on9 as me...hehe... cuz the library line memang not good Unless at nite or early in the morning. i mean at least i have someone beside me to on9 together. haha....she was constantly complaining like me that we are unable to finish up our annoying assignment but hell yeah at least we put effort in it right...... then around 6sumthin saw d terfamous sktm fella namely kevin( p/s: no offence) with his buddies after class i suppose kan... fang plan to go back at 9 cuz nw no bus since they take shifts or else they knew nw no students bah... anyway goin to stay up late to finish up stuff at the same time damaging my ears listening to loud rawk songs. thats the 'bestest' way for me to release my STRESS haunting me...luv listening the band 'forever the sickest kids','senses fail', 'valencia', 'early november' etc i so goin to ask my bros to update me with the latest rawk bands pop up like mushroom in US oncce am back to my Melaka... ah, cant wait to go bck mann! ish....miss home d...

snap back to reality

heyz am back after a 'long' break on a mere short 'holiday' back home....told u its so fast and guess what tomorrow will be my long term in prison. tomorrow will have to sit 2am bus to kl and then flight touchdown at 9am. hope theres no delay. well to summarise overall, theres alot of places to visit...i mean bai nian. the 1st three days spend omost half a day in respective relatives houses. and as a tradition all of us will gather to play the poker cards. its fun though aithough we just invest few ringgits. its togetherness that counts. yeah pretty miss that day. cut it short..and on the 4th day my exclassmates and I gather and we go visiting to like more than 10houses. this time it was kinda different cuz cy and i join the pro physics fellas...and we start our mission trip cny houses at 10am and ended up at bout 1030pm. kinda tiring but luckily not me whos driving. its nw a few hours away from my time to go back to sabah. no, its actually 2hours TO 1am. anyhow have to gear up myself for all the heaps and tonnes of assignments+tutorials+exams trailing along... its becoming intense. anyway ppl, im goin back to SABAH!!!!!