damn....+ random thoughts

yes im back...yo peeps, due to predictable stuff that might evoke, i have no choice but to set to private my blog..ish! damn it! wouldnt noe how long i have to leave it like this...but i guess its not the time yet. and theres culprits trying to hack in...ones that are Most forbidden to let them noe bout it... Damn it. yeah, the line here are sooo extremely bad! campus line are always bad.cant even log in to register the courses...but am still in the midst of 'am i in kk nw?' still cant get enuf of malacca life...especially the food there and mummy's secret recipe..luv it luv it!!! oh yeah oso catch up with my brothers especially my elder bro who continuously recommend us to listen all the rock bands in US which are still new to the music industry there but got few response in asia. aww, hw i just missed it. later am going out with amelia,yvonne and david but dunno to where. its good though cuz its so bored here. not goin to rot here.
agree with u deb our pics soon will flood this blog,conquered the words. pics paint a thousand words...



love potato

weird jagung breed the one at the top

and oso pics of satay celup fud coming up! in progress! lasie wanna upload nw.

2nd day-nite out

1st up!....bored of blogging liow..haha... but since nothing to do will just belog then. last thurs me and my ex-classmates came up with a hard-to-decide 'auspicious' date to lepak...but finally we settled to meet up last thurs. not the whole homosapiens present cuz u know they are sooo....busy busy bee with their life. it was just the seven of us,the 'sampat'ted gang...

at bout 1something drove to munshi and fetched cy. we chit-chatted in the car while waiting for ch. she actually took an hour ride bus to meet us! so sweet...u go gal! then we went to mlc sentral and picked zat up cuz she jz came bck from her johor uni being a so called tour guide for the youngsters in johor for a week....woah never knew u got a permitted job there in no time! can be trusted kah? haha...kidding.lol. during our journey to mp, yingying called us, pestering to meet her there earlier as we were late for more than an hour. cant be blame there were too many important vip ppl in my car..hehe.

once we reached we saw petite fang and xl approaching us, subsequently ying popped up out of nowhere. later we headed to pizzahut and the very first thing we did after we sat and warmed the chairs were to talk non-stop till our main topic was not to order pizza but to talk on our dreadful experiences in our respecticve uni!!! as usual laughed and talked loudly till it filled the atmosphere in the restaurant. mann, even more to catch up with my these ever bubbly buddies!

next up, we went shopping at the same time took loads of pics...fooling around with the plush toys, browsing stuffs and we went one of the shops grabbing their soft toys there and the salesgal was like giving us this sulky face saying we were not allowed to take pics with that cute toys. oh common we were actually promoting ur toys in front of the camera..haha. neway we just love the place.

then we tried some of the clothes there and bought a black top. so bout 8something I drove bck home. suppose to sent cy to jj after dropped zat down, but kena held by sc for like 40mins! haha...she got lotsa stories bout her sarawak life and kept on ranting how she longing to go bck mlcca asap..! genuinely everyone felt the same too... hmmph but weird. am kinda felt wanna go bck to kk asap.... its just unexplainable. felt so trapped deep inside. suffocating. misery. tired. mixed feelings. but to hope a bright light soon to shine from within. may You let it sparks. plz dont let it die off. may You empower it high above not to separate it with the walls in between. for all i have is only You. only You. enough of wordy wordy words. haiz... time for pics... )) ~put a brave smile~





zat fang me cy


chiak! ch and xl popped up from behind!


love this moo moo


presenting the cute 'kok kok kai' !!! i got d big ying got d small!


piak! got smacked!



mashimaro


fang looks like promoting the reddish hen for cny



lovably cute


love taht moomoo sticking out



bears^^ mine abit tersenget the head


me and size xl


me and zat besi


bluish xmas tree


hey! this doggie actually love the breezy wind!

night out

yeap the usual gang met up again after donkey months of separation!!! suppose to be all of our former f6 classmates get together and partay all the way but they are all so caught up with their big profit 'business'... so will have to rearrange our reunion date! but it will definitely happen soon! so just yesterday cy called me asking me...

cy : oi watz up?

me (thinking watz down) : yeah cha bo anything?

cy : hey we wanna hang out later after work that means around 11pm?

me : hmm....ok.

cy( got inspired by the s'pore lang mia muvi, money not enough2 ) : ok ah..ok ah... on ahh? on 'bor' ? wei on 'bor' ?!

me(pretty blur at that time) : orh...on on.

and the conversation continued.

so bout 11 sumthin ks came and fetched me with zat too. then we picked cy up at jj and off we went to mori cafe. mann,regret of ordering the dunno what chinese tea. it was sooo awfully bitter! tasted like those herbal stuff..ish... then we continue chatting and realized there were so many things to catch with each other! and we were laughing so loud till our over frequency range can reach the other end of the place (pardon me for that guys, do we?haha).

keep the story short..then around 12something we kena halau and so we hang around at a mamak restaurant. and continue to chat non-stop. before we left we took pics and one of the man in the restaurant offered to help us take pics. haha... guessed we look sooo kesian trying our best to adjust the camera phone which fit 4 of us. and we just cant get enough and planned for the next outing though...

before

after...still da same us

us!!! <3


blurry me

Updates!!

yeap im back from mnc in picc ( putrajaya international convention centre) kl. hmm....kinda blur on what to blog cuz there's tooo many things in my mind right now and before and pretty blank right now. as if being struck by so called sudden death bolt. hish..choi!

picc building

view from picc

in plenary hall. the hall so big kan...if watch movies here damn nice le..2 big screens sumore

13th mnc 2008 vibrant community


allrite, well this mnc really RAWKS!!! it was really a great and awesome experience i got the chance to participate in it. i especially enjoyed and fascinated with the praise and worship session. i mean i alwiz wanna be part of the real concert atmosphere like the one i alwiz view in you tube or dvd, the hillsong concert or planetshakers and it pretty did in mnc! haha..too imaginative.. that was the moment where i can felt God's presence and it drew me closer to Him each time i worship Him. during the p&w i was like jumpin like ' siao lang', singing out loud like a croaking frog, and dancing around for no other reason but i know it is Him that makes me feel the sheer joy in da hse of God. guess what, it was also the very 1st time our hope kk performed the p&w in mnc! and im there to see them LIVE in kl! haha i know am being exaggerating bout it but honestly they are really superb when they are on stage! no joke..and whoo....i was really going nuts that day. even now was still reminiscence bout the time there. but all along its just cool to be there...


our hope kk worship team

our hope kk ever talented musicians

okay enough of my mak nenek stories...on the 1st day, me,pei chin,ben arrived at d picc there at about 1o30am. then we were supposed to change to an orange shirt for our v-amazing race. then ben try on the orange shirts he brought in the basement car park and it turned to be so fit and small! watz more its V-neck shirts some more cuz the shirts belonged to his sis. then after much trying session, he finally wore pei chin's teddy bear orange T-shirt. so weird but he got no choice....too bad. pei chin claimed that she actually puposely bought the T-shirt bcuz there's a big orange teddy bear smacked in the centre of the T-shirt and that she had no chance to wear. haha... so then we headed to the restaurant and met up with ah doh,taurus,rui te, and mun seng. and again munseng told me bout how shopaholic he was during the sem break. mann, never knew le... so dont judge ppl by his cover. he looks like homelic (as in home sick in my thesaurus dictionary haha) but he is not! and he's pretty proud of it! as if im not as shopaholic as he is...hmmph..

later, we were given brief explanation on the rules and regulations bout the v-amazing race. our 'ah tau' shud be bro ricky but he's flight kena delayed. our team, 'team orang asli' comprised of pei chin, ben, kevin, me and some of the bm gp(hehe cant remember). and another group comprised of william, diana, annie, siew mei, jen, and 4get liow haha.. there was one game where we had to use all of our stuffs to connect to one another and grab the things from one side to another. and bcuz of our high spirit to win, me and kevin actually had to sacrifice our hp chargers! just imagine there was hp charger in our bags! not bad huh...in terms of emergency. and one of our member also had to sacrifice his belt he was wearing and that he claimed he cannot run bcuz he was afraid the baggy pants he wore will just dropped off! haha! watlah... but so sad we got the 7th place..and diana's gp got 4th place. but overall it was not very exciting la..haha cuz we ran 'anak anak ayam' inside the picc nia..haha

our 1st task-squeezing our brains figuring out the ans


unveil the puzzle

moving on, we went to the plenary hall to give our support to our team who participated in the breakthrough 08. its basically about the singing competition la. anD aND AND for the individual category in which mina( ah ben's sis) took part in actually won the 1st prize!!! woohoo! and the lyrics were written by li shia mann! and not only that for group category our 'hope new gen worshippers' won the 1st place too!!! wow...bravo guys!!! we were like cheering and wooing non-stop till our mouth no saliva d...we were out of enzyme amylase d..haha. clapping our hands till 'ba' d.. i guessed we hope kk cheered the Loudest mann! i can see pastor anthony and sis moi moi gleaming and brimming in delight!

hope new gen worshippers!

finally it was dinner time...my stomach has been waiting patiently and making all sorts of instrumental noises cuz was freaking hungry! and that some of us only had the dishes only without the rice including pathetic ME bcuz if we were want to eat the rice we had to queue up another time as the rice will be another side...and there were about 30++ ppl ahead of us if we were to lined up for the sake of the rice! wat kinda system is this...but luckily i brought my choco buns le....if not will be starving to death. jen jen and lia lia said that that was the delicious choco bun they had! haha...

allrite will cut short my post...if not i will be lengthening my crappy stories till the wee hours. then the hope serdang i supposed performed their opening ceremony presentation. the whole presentation left me with my jaws wide open cuz dont get their real message behind it. even emui did asked me whether i understand or not. hmm..damn confusing. after that pastors preach their sermon and teaching. they are all great pastors. i especially love to listen to pastor denis from hope srwk and pastor jeff from hope s'pore. both of them are real humorous and u will definitely laughed till your heads off! tak putus kepala pun akan putus mia...

our team

our masterpiece!

my tag! hehe

the next day will be the vibrant for Jesus night where we brought our home made percussions and shake it off. the following day we went to putrajaya and the botanical garden. worst still, no flowers all plants only! and we arrived late to board the bus. and the chinese uncle gave us this sour looking banana look! maybe its because we were the last bus cuz our gang got carried away by kevin's contagious jumping freestyle! he still can teach chris, diana, jen, and munseng hw to jump... haih,gone case la...haha! (no offence ya!).

us in botanical garden

in the 'tut tut'

the fake flowers following your direction

pm office greeny pointed onion

the sultan selangor palace

then on sunday was the closing ceremony. it was about the catterpillar, butterfly, and all those animals u have seen in madagascar2. wow time flies mann...never knew we were going to depart to our own respective hometown so soooon. so me william and kevin went to kl sentral. then he dumped us at the petaling street as we headed to the pudu bus station... there were ppl from all walks of life walking to and fro. and im sweating like crazy le...so damn heavy my antique bag! my shoulder omost patah oso... we reached malacca bout 7pm like tat. and william was like 'rusa masuk kampung'.evithing so new to him.was really damn exhausted and tired that day. but overall it was a wonderful experience! looking forward nxt year if got the chance.

we won the 1st place too for this creative usher award

me and jen jen,she's the usher of the day! nice outfit though

me and lia lia at the end of the mnc!

p/s : would like to give my BIG BIG BIG THANX and HUGZ to Amelia for assisting me throughout this mnc!!!LUV ya sis! , THANX to Emui for her guidance and THANX to William for the fellowship in the..............Bus! haha...even bus pun boleh. and yeah not to forget also to Kevin for dumping us in pudu if not we both sure sesat jalan!
GOD BLESS YOU GUYS!!!!!!

MNC yo!!!

finally its 4th december tomorrow!! first time im going to picc and our hope mnc tomorrow! never knew its going to be so soooon. just imagine there will be whole load of ppl from all around the hope churches in msia...its going to be super pack i guess. just last 2 months i signed up late and now its going to happen tomorrow! yeah thats true...im not the early birds to sign up cuz was like fickle minded to go or not to...and after thinking for a long time will just go for it!! and and and the consequences of signing up late is i have to pay extra 20bucks if im not mistaken.

the other day, diana did called me to help her prepared some traditional homemade percussions. at first was like mann...do i have to do such magnificent percussions for our very extravaganza and vibrant mnc? im going to screw everything up then. so i asked her and haha! she told me just use mineral bottles or can drinks and filled up with any beans ( be that green beans, red beans black beans and colour beans or even rice)! haha...what am i thinking.... and was like owkey dowkey..and will prepare 7 of them for our genesis cg. who knows what will happen next.

its my 1st time to mnc and quite excited at the same time challenging i suppose cuz will be participating in the amazing race! and bro ricky is our 'ah tau'... honestly dunno who is bro ricky..hehe. if the 'i' change to 'o' then i know la.....haha... will have to wait at pei ching's hse as early as 7.30am! and then will wait for ah ben to fetch us! but if they asked us, oh no, ME on Bible knowledge will be dead. i will be stammering then or even speechless! hope our mnc goes on smoothly with God's will..

in the morning just now, went for dental check-up. oh boy, was like more than 1year++ didnt go to dental clinic already ever since im officially removed from wearing retainer!! gosh, those days were real freaking torturing! have to extract my 5 precious tooth for doing the orthodontic. and have to wore for like 5-6 years consecutively! so today had my teeth scaling and was pretty screeching! and painful! kinda phobia to dental clinics already cuz have been a regular patient ever since am form1 till form6! hish! and have to go there another time next week after mnc! cuz the doc found cavities! bad bacteria....how dare stained my whitey sparkling tooth with ur blackey thingy. haha.. and it cost damn expensive..but no choice if not later 'bogei' not 'taugeh'. will have to go now. have fun guys!!

paintball !!!

today was forced to wake up at 7.30am! by my mum... she planned to bring me and my two bros and also my uncle to the sihat malaysia programme thingy. i was so lazy to wake up but relentlessly have to give up and get ready to go to the hutan rekreasi!

we suppose to reach there by 8.30am but u know sometimes we do break rules...normal 'tradition' already..haha.. so we reached there around 9am. we were lost on da way there cuz we seldom go all up to the place there but we were lucky to bump into a malay couple who planned to go to the same place as us!! but suddenly his van could not start! poor thing, need 3-4 people to push his van.

then finally we reached the exact place..there were alot of exciting games awaiting but was planning to just watch and stare only.haha.. first up, they started with paintball game followed by teambuilding, and lastly family telematch... was hoping it ends super early cuz its soooo boring! majority its all those elderly people le... me and bro were like complaining to my mum that after the 1st game had finished that was the paintball we can go back d..and she agreed.

by right the game supposed to end before noon but but but it dragged on longer and longer. i was like could not stand already cuz having extremely pain stomachache sumore! but just bear with it........(should be awarded pingat berjasa). then it was my uncle who was supposed to take part in the games but he too cannot stand and fled back home. and the team lack of a member, and my bro shall be the targetted victim then.. he had no choice...and i was thinking shit, the words GO BACK EARLY will be vanished in just split second my bro say yes. and he did. fine....and the game will last from 14 matches at the 1st round till finals! and its just for 1 game!!!! wokeh, will support my bro in the match then. i do encourage him to join la cuz this paintball sport is for free sponsored by the government and even if you wanna take part in this game on those usual days it will amount you to more than 50bucks per person... so this is the chance rite.. so it turned out that we stayed on till the game over and suppported him instead.

and guess what?! my bro's team actually reached to the finals! yoohoo...! haha. at first he kept on being commanded by the high pitch referee voice " OUT "!!! but sooner he is more well verse with the game and their team actually the 1st runner up!!! it was somehow a thrilling yet exciting BUT a gruelling game too cuz if you were to hit by the 'bullets' you will definitely got numerous bruises in which some of them got big patch of 'or cheh' ( blue black i guess or lebam) !!! so damn freaking pain! but its just simply a good experience with no regrets..... and the funny thing is the agenda suppose to have 2 or 3 games after that 1st game but they managed to run the 1st game only! and they gave out the hamper and stuff. and finally we went home around 3 sumtin.what a tiring day!

gearing up against opponent(my bro the red shirt)

like counter strike le

aim on target

not again...

ahh not again....wonder why did i poured out my prob to him... ish... yesterday went to carefour shopping mall with my parents cuz in the meant time while waiting for my bro from his tuition we go shopped for some stuff. then bought some necessary stuff to bring back to uni. bought clothes in fos and dad paid for them. haha.. so before we went back we went to big apple to eat some delicioussss doughnuts..i ate the greeny kiwi. yum yum!

so suddenly he msged me.asking me bout the continuation of yesterday's Q. he is actually my long distance sheperd for now..haha. i noe its kinda weird. so be it. so that time dunno why my instinct just moved me to complain my probs to him and was really moved by his messages la. but so sad he's going to pahang for church planting work ministries cuz the Lord appeared to him in his vision. neway really thankful that i get to know him as he teaches me alot bout the Lord and that hears my sickening problems ALOT even in uni. and always saturated me with encouragement and solution in the word of God. truthfully the word of God can really stirred up your life even you are bogged down with big burdens or high in joy.

annnnd today went shopping with fam and bought heels in vincci at jusco!! haha..cant resist to buy heels there... then suddenly saw seed got 50% discount!!! thought of buying but not enough money... so spare for another day then... =)

home sweeet home.....

today (Sunday), the most anticipating day ever, i will be back home to my beloved malacca!!! was like counting the days all this while and have been packing my luggage bags 1.5 days before sunday. thoughts just dashed in on what i will be doing right after i arrived malacca and reached my house. haha...cant help it not to be blame. toooo homesick already...

so this morning i woke up at 5.35am and then start to on9. duno what the heck happened to me. this few days kept on waking up at bout 5sumtin automatically. its like it has been programmed in my mind that my wake up call is at 5sumtin. eventho i slept at 2am busy on9ing, i just could woke up at 5sumtin!!

at bout 10.30am my couz fetched me to the lcct airport with his fam too..we arrived thr bout half an hour later. as usual we need to check in first and shit when i was about to let the fella weight my very heavy luggage bag, the small stand below of my luggage bag suddenly broke...damn why in this time pulak.. fine.......... then went to kfc cuz my aunt wanted to belanja me.

before entering the waiting place where u need to lined up before boarding the plane, went to a shop to buy CHOCO 1st cuz have been wanting and craving for chocolates d since the cancellation plan!!!! haha... as u guys know malaysian style have to rush for the line...lucky me to get a place near the smallie window....get to see the breathtaking view from above, just simply spectacular....the bluishy ocean, fluffy whitey clouds, and the lil islands scattering around just make it so complete and perfect of our global nature! how amazing of God's creation...

the duration of the flight is soooo long.....have to sit there for bout 2and a half hours le. then suddenly we felt the plane shaking...was like praying hard that nothing happened and that we would finally reached kl airport safely. so scary mann can see the wings of the plane lifted up and down. then i was reassuring myself it must be the air resistance.haha. so at bout 3pm finally landed at the airport. minutes later my dad called. my parents and lil bro had already arrived in the airport. then saw my mum haha waved my hands at her like the so called celebrity just allighted from the plane.

at last i reached home and am relaxing now..... its soooo great to be home!!!!! but so weird when i stepped in my lovely house felt abit akward cuz its like nearly 6 months im away from home ok! the thing is when i got in the toilet i felt so weird cuz i never use slippers as i used to in hostel.haha!!! the tv and refri have been waiting so patiently for me and my bed is like soo seducing...haha miss my stuffy so muchhhh.....

allrite...kinda feel like dowan go back hostel liow...haha. but have tooo...... =( will be going bck to kk after a month of leisure and carefree dayz, so going to spend to the fullest when im here then have to be back to the ordinary monotonous usual uni life! haha.. k till then... have fun guys in ur respective hometown!!!

finally.......

finally im free from my 9 freaking exams which were damn damn damn stressful for me for the past 3 weeks for goodness sake.. really have sleepless nite. yesterday actually slept for like 3 hours only okay! or maybe less and turn out what.....actually had sacrificed my sleep and yet not many of the Qs i spotted came out..haih realllly disappointed la...when doing the exam that time really 'pek chek' la...really worried bout the outcome but not going to think bout it. am going to relax myself first and reallllly anticipating to go back home!!!!!! cant wait mann.... and its going to realize in like 2 more days!!! woohooo....!

well just now just came back from 1 Borneo to celebrate missy debra's birthday...its so happened that her roomie too falls on the same date as her. actually suppose to go there with yvonne but she have to buy some stuff for our cg this coming sat. then while waiting for yvonne there was this kk bus was about to move and its so happened after yvonne told me i will need to go 1 borneo myself, then shit kk bus just left.. wokeh....need to wait 4 another bus and its going to take much time... then so happened e mui jz arrived at kg e bus stop and luckily she's on the way to 1 borneo so she offered me a ride. haha...save time.
so me munseng von and peter went to pizza hut for dinner while the 2 bday gals and cas went to watch james bond movie. and throughout the dinner we really talk crap alot la...... then later he told us that we might not go to labuan....so sad....was like craving to go there cuz besides being a chocoholic wanna experience the place there. and he said we can change our plan to kudat then. he claimed that its not worth it to go there by ferry as it takes 3 hours and that the weather now its not advisable to go there as it is now raining season and would be dangerous cuz may cause big waves. finally we came to a point that we might go to kk instead tomorrow to filipino market etc.
p/s : im so so very sure deb's going to complain and post about this labuan issues. hahaha...

cant stand d....very very sleepy now. thats it all for now. love the meaningful lyrics of here in my life- hillsongs. <3

deadliest subject!!!!

okay i suppose to post this blog upon request from debra last week but unfortunately sumtin mess stuff happened.. so kinda type halfway and thrown to draft box..haih.. so allrite from my title u know im REALLLY having a MASSIVE CRISIS.... real HUGE OK!!!! its all because of the solely killing subject..none other than SAINS BUMI DAN PLANET!!! Erghh....hate that subject so much.......why on earth do we have to take that subject....maybe its some kind of mental torture from my lecturer though....hopefully not goin to retake le.... neway its over so not goin to talk bout it. haha..

finals....

finals = my bigggessst world critical crisis!!!! never knew is going to strike me in just a nick of time!! hardly had the ample time to actually focus well on that particular subject and that time passes so quickly when you are not actually aware of it. damn....theres like 2 ppib exams in one day and the last day also 2 teras sekolah exams. shit....hope can turn back time but that is sooo impossible and thinking bout it, its really suffocating me now.....

yesterday just sat for my kokum exam...guess what we are given 4 power point slides in which consists on 82,47,27,14 slides and the Qs only come out from the least slides!! im like reading the other slides till half dead already and it turned out to be just.....THAT.. haih...hope that the following exams will not be a burden but i sensed its never going to happen. it will be real torturing! im going haywire already.....am now digesting the complicated science stuff. shud stop bloggin in d meant time then. perhaps will be going to church with a zombie look.....
=( worry...

back in action...! ( i guess)

allrite here am i blogging.......!!! kinda lost touch already cuz its like donkey months i have not updated my blistering boring blog!! and im like what the hell shud i write... hmm...actually i just came back from kg AB cuz we are FORCE to join the fencing competition....and crazy mann...im at there from like 7.40am till 8.30pm and its reallly just a waste of time.... the losing teams but of course its including my team la have to sit around killing time. and its really getting my nerves la cuz have to wait for the foil category to end....after that is the epee category and the 'best' thing is that foil actually ended up at 6pm!! siow mann! perhaps theres toooo many female fencers which outweight the male fencers. my team actually consists of 3 members but unfortunately one of my member,a senior did not turn up. Darn! absolutely we are going to lose for sure....and im like soooo freakingly bad in fencing watz more im against seniors who are way to pro and quick to hit our targetted parts..that it really hits my belly! to add to my misery, we actually have to wear the masks and attire which are damn smelly and wet..! bcuz there were like more than 20 of us to take turns changing the attire once is our turn...never in my life have to wear an attire which is entirely super stink! oh gosh, the smell kinda stuck to my shirt and i have to go bck by bus with that smell clinging onto me....ergh..really eww..
watz more its raining cats and dogs and im like super hungry d... all my shoes and attire were all drenched Completely. im like soaking wet in a pool of water. then after allighted from the bus fuhh..at last reached my room. and guess what i have to 'accelerate' myself to finish up my stupid assignment..haih...and im actually struggling with it till the next morning and am nw blogging at 5.35am as im tooo bored and at 9am i have to go to dc for the Hari Koku thingy. just a waste of time mann. oly have 3hours of sleep in between. freaking damn pathetic!! I sooo goin to complaint to my mummy,fam and frenz when im back..haha..miss them loads... miss malacca food so much...! my couz claimed that i will be a 'halal' freak staying in kg e... yeah rite....no choice kan.... and shit final exams around the corner. not even ready yet!! so sleepy nw....going to take forty winks then...

provoking thoughts

For the 1st time i'm going to further my studies in a place which is never ever comes into my mind. a place i never expected to picture or to be there myself all by my own. a place which is far away from home for like almost 20years. I'm going to fly to kk in 2days time which is a place full of greenery and the beauty of its natural surrounding not knowing the obstacles which lies ahead of me.

I kinda feel drastically down the 1st time i got to know my uni and course through online. i was really devastated,clearly because it was not my top choice moreover somewhere far away. that particular day was a hell 4me. Clueless of what to think and the thoughts that were playing in my mind was just imcomparable. its like all the negative thoughts were just bombarding me. not given an ample space to breath. i felt so trapped and lost. i even contemplating about the offer when the clock struck 1.3oa.m. i felt bad for my mum too because she was completely speechless of what to say whenever i asked her about my condition whether to go for it or to turn down. as you all know mums want the best out of the best for their beloved children right?... so i felt so wrong for her.... =( but anyway i love her dearly for caring for me... =)

anyhow no matter what happen we still have to look ahead and think positively...maybe its a blessing in disguise i got the offer there. all i can do is to be grateful for what i have got now because i know God shines me the light. He is the one who show me the road,the road less travelled,my destiny.

p/s: i kinda wrote 1/3 of the paragraph below on the 10 july bcuz =( i cant on9. so basically the story kinda divert a lil. haha neway nobody is going to read my blog...so who cares i wrote crappy stories haha

Waiting

Frankly speaking, patience is never my type. i can be like so patient a minute and another way round the other minute. well what the heck...no one is perfect after all. even albert einstein( the smarty nerdy ) one or the whole bunch of freaking nerds or the extremist do made/make mistakes. i'm not being patronizing on purpose. pardon me should i insult any of you. anyway no one is going to read my blog...

Allright the thing is it's really getting my nerve considering the fact that we haven't got any feedback from the goverment on which Uni we get and worst of all we are all waiting anxiously for the courses and the state they chucked us! why are they taking so slow to reveal them? or they are just buying time. time is ticking away and curiousity is killing me.

What sort of system is this?... others have started studying way back then ( 2 or 3 weeks ago ) and we, the ones' waiting for the goverment U are STILL WAITING in anticipation like a rotten apple. its time to change for goodness sake! could u just imagine we have to be in this so called 'complicated' situation. first up, u have to EITHER choose to continue to study in local varsity OR to apply a place in private u. and then if you're afraid that you would not get the course or the place you desire,off you landed yourself in private u and subsequently force to spare one lump sum of big bucks. and........if luck happened to strike on you then your bucks is now drained to their piggy bank and they're going to jump for joy. hell, they are going to earn alot.

I got a call this evening from my ex-colleague claiming that the result is out. i was like cannot be. she must be kidding or heard wrongly. anyway the papers havent publish anything yet. so again wait............... i hope He shines me the right path.

churning emotions....

It has been quite awhile i have not blog as there were a string of events unpredictably happened in my life. not to mention its the bad happenings or should i say bad omen i wouldnt want to flashback. its really killing me inside but i keep myself telling that there is always ups and downs in life and that i should faced the fact and with great courage to deal with it.

i started to question myself again....why should i put into these miserable yet pain in the neck situation? why should it be me? why should it be me to carry these whole loads of burden? why people seemed to ignore the things that i had gone through? cant they put themselves in my shoes? why are they being so cruel that everything i have done is just of no use and shouldnt be cherish at all!!!? cant they just trust and believe in me for once? am i that worst?

i am who i am not what i am... im just a normal person that loves to be appreciated and to feel that my presence do make a lil difference in each and everyone that is in my life.....eventhough if he or she is a stranger to me. i just want to be a good samaritan...

maybe it is God's will to open up my eyes and to go through these tremendous trials and turbulations with an open heart....but not to ponder and dwell over the past. its me that i need to direct myself. but i couldnt help it but to say sometimes i do go overboard. haih.. just useless.

treat...yummy BUT SCARY

yesterday i got a nice treat from my colleagues (well its kinda make me feel so old using such word as if i'm now a working lady) as i am going to resign soon from my job as a rhbi temporary staff. we went to a japanese restaurant and the place there seemed like what i saw in tv the other day-channel afc( asian food channel). the difference is we are not in tv... -_- we were served with scrumptious and simply irresistible mouth-watering food by a young skillful chef. he used two ladles and upon frying he will hit that two ladles against each other and i guess that was necessity in becoming a professsional japanese chef. if i were to do that zillions of human eyes might be staring at me and giving me that sinister looks thinking what this mad girl was up to...luckily i resisted myself not to act like a ' pro chef '.

so seven of us ( we are not the seven dwarfs ) continue to savour the delicious food and at the same time chit-chating with the chef. he kinda feel alil akward after one of my colleagues started interrogating him with a stream of questions...but he still gave us the feedback whenever we asked him. a nice chap though.haha.. it looks really really simple seeing him frying all the delicacies but he claimed it took three months to know how to cook well but it need years of experience to master it...

later he started serving us a portion of lamb meat and fish. oh gosh, if i hadn't sat in front of him i wouldn't know how much cooking oil did he used. its way too cholesterol and thats what exactly made the food taste superb! while looking at him frying the food with the excess oil around it, the inner voice in me started reassuring that its ok to get some... since its once in a blue moon..okey forget it and with the chopsticks in my itchy hand,i did tried alil. it tasted chewy and meaty. but i can just imagine the oil oozing out of my mouth...i know it sounded gross.

upon reaching home, i grabbed a cup of oats and started drinking it. i know i sounded weird but my cholesterol is way up high! darn!

fuhh...what a day.... =)