Saturday, November 21, 2009

hearts out

well, as always its sucha torturing and traumatic during the exam week...anyhow its all over. am gonna have the time of my life for the time being before the start of the new sem. it has been indeed a 'great' week as am free from exams and stuffs where i can easily watch movies, reading my all time favourite storybooks, listening to songs, hangout etc...but somehow thrs this corner of my heart,i felt so empty. its as though am being outcast into some deserted island with the cannibals and some typical tribes around me. envious and jealousness feelings creeping as well. kept questioning the reason to be here. i know thrs an answer to everything but its yet to derive. try to put away my unwanted thoughts aside but it just kept haunting. i felt regret to be like one but that is how its made of. plus the pressure is killing me. everything just seems like a roadblock. i should look up to Him. for strength. for everything...
end of emoing. i looked back,almost all my post mostly on all about my sad, emo stories.allrite. quick revert. thrs this convention im goin to attend and it held from 26th to 29th. am freaking eager to join...as its the biggest event of all! well you gonna see thousands of ppl from all walks of life flocking to picc kl! and this 14th MNC( the Malaysian National Convention), our Hope KK will have the priviledge to perform in the closing ceremony of MNC which is just simply awesome! as this is our very 1st time to conduct this grand convention... (adrenalines rushing)!
and i will be performing on stage as just the minor roles in sketch too! though its just a small role and a short play but wateva...i felt so excited! its so rare but i believe we need to seize every opportunity that comeby. so it started on the 26th and my exams finished on the 16th. practically am stuck here for like 10days long before going back to malacca. i just darn miss home nw. though it seems like just 10 short days, but its like 100 thousand years to me! seriously though am free and its nw the sem holidays but still i felt so restless , bored, agitated and tired. as i guess am clueless on what to do and how to utilize my free time here. unlike when its study weeks whr u are so caught up with lotsa things and it just kept u moving....
ok, will have to rot for another 5days here. haiz. =(( having backpain as a consequences of not doing strenuous exercises like walking up the hill to class! will have to take a nap nw. later at 6pm got practice for mnc closing. last thurs we were done at 1130pm! though we got lectured by sis dorcas as we screwed things up the other day during practice, and when thrs unhappy moments and intense pressure during practice, but all along we felt so connected and joyful with one another! its a wonderful experience i would have said. =))

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