Wednesday, June 25, 2008

provoking thoughts

For the 1st time i'm going to further my studies in a place which is never ever comes into my mind. a place i never expected to picture or to be there myself all by my own. a place which is far away from home for like almost 20years. I'm going to fly to kk in 2days time which is a place full of greenery and the beauty of its natural surrounding not knowing the obstacles which lies ahead of me.

I kinda feel drastically down the 1st time i got to know my uni and course through online. i was really devastated,clearly because it was not my top choice moreover somewhere far away. that particular day was a hell 4me. Clueless of what to think and the thoughts that were playing in my mind was just imcomparable. its like all the negative thoughts were just bombarding me. not given an ample space to breath. i felt so trapped and lost. i even contemplating about the offer when the clock struck 1.3oa.m. i felt bad for my mum too because she was completely speechless of what to say whenever i asked her about my condition whether to go for it or to turn down. as you all know mums want the best out of the best for their beloved children right?... so i felt so wrong for her.... =( but anyway i love her dearly for caring for me... =)

anyhow no matter what happen we still have to look ahead and think positively...maybe its a blessing in disguise i got the offer there. all i can do is to be grateful for what i have got now because i know God shines me the light. He is the one who show me the road,the road less travelled,my destiny.

p/s: i kinda wrote 1/3 of the paragraph below on the 10 july bcuz =( i cant on9. so basically the story kinda divert a lil. haha neway nobody is going to read my blog...so who cares i wrote crappy stories haha

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