what happen to me these days....i wondered. always questioning myself, am i in the right place? or should i be in that not-so-sure scene? should i go on or just let go? can i go on without inflicting my half-hearted heart? why is it there is certain times i felt mellow and sort of gave in? but can i trust? i felt so insecure and slowly sinking into a state of doubtfulness. to be honest and truthful is indeed an excruating pain. i longed to shove it away but u kept insisting them. and i have hurt u to swallow my painstakingly harsh yet hurtful words. u were taken aback but still kept with the calmness manner. are you even human?... i hope u will stay a thousand miles away. i may just let time tells. eventually it will return to its exact place.
this sem is completely freaking packed! its a tremendous drastic change in my schedule compared to last sem! for now, i have like almost all morning classes to attend and from mon till fri! i can no longer enjoy a few of my morning hours curling up in my comfy lil bed anymore... but its a good thing though that i will have ample time to run some 'errand' around uni. i realized i have more hours to kill and able to maximise my time after my morning classes. i must vowed to be productive and to catch up the 'last train home'! i woulnt want to be just flat plain Jane but the one that can make a difference. yes, a word that will bear in my mind. as in Your words, as i walk in Your path, You will lead and guide me and give me the strength to go on until i finish the race. i know You will always fuel me to keep me recharge in utmost potential and be still by You. my overflowing thankfulness to You oh Lord...
