revived again!

grrreat.......! its my new post for a new year! allrightey, there's lotsa stuffs to blog on as i have been moving along without typing all out here. gosh, clueless on where to start. will just pour out whatever that comes into my mind now. but the saddest part was that i had just left malacca for sabah few days ago. i started to miss my mummy now. missed talking crap with her. missed shopping around with her. missed jogging around the park with her. missed sharing bout Christ with her. and the weirdest part is missed her long-winded nagging! she will always be the queen of my heart. i wouldnt never ever substitute her for the queen of England, Queen Elizabeth, the pouty thick lips, Mrs. Angelina Jolie, the sexy R&B singer, Mariah Carey nor Lady Gaga! lol. wtf. she is just simply wonderful and beautiful inside out as a person. she is a woman with a heart of gold. an awesome cool mum! always salute her for her patience. mann, she can bear with our attitudes and shortcomings without lashing out her anger. thankies mummy! and able to juggle her life, fam, and her siblings with a steadfast heart along with her perseverance to stay positive. to top it all, incomparably the best best best mummy in the wholewide world! will always love u lady boss! <3

what happen to me these days....i wondered. always questioning myself, am i in the right place? or should i be in that not-so-sure scene? should i go on or just let go? can i go on without inflicting my half-hearted heart? why is it there is certain times i felt mellow and sort of gave in? but can i trust? i felt so insecure and slowly sinking into a state of doubtfulness. to be honest and truthful is indeed an excruating pain. i longed to shove it away but u kept insisting them. and i have hurt u to swallow my painstakingly harsh yet hurtful words. u were taken aback but still kept with the calmness manner. are you even human?... i hope u will stay a thousand miles away. i may just let time tells. eventually it will return to its exact place.

this sem is completely freaking packed! its a tremendous drastic change in my schedule compared to last sem! for now, i have like almost all morning classes to attend and from mon till fri! i can no longer enjoy a few of my morning hours curling up in my comfy lil bed anymore... but its a good thing though that i will have ample time to run some 'errand' around uni. i realized i have more hours to kill and able to maximise my time after my morning classes. i must vowed to be productive and to catch up the 'last train home'! i woulnt want to be just flat plain Jane but the one that can make a difference. yes, a word that will bear in my mind. as in Your words, as i walk in Your path, You will lead and guide me and give me the strength to go on until i finish the race. i know You will always fuel me to keep me recharge in utmost potential and be still by You. my overflowing thankfulness to You oh Lord...